Wednesday, September 12, 2007 @ 6:09 PM
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What sparks creativity?
This question pops out of nowhere in my mind today and this sets me thinking. When are the times that I am creative. How come i was creative at that point of time. What sparks off my creativeness?
The only possible answer (well at least to myself) that i could possibly think of is
INTEREST. Interest that are strong enough to make your lazy brains come out from the slump and squeeze out the neurons out of them to provide that spark of genius. Sounds incredible eh?
I myself is quite amazed about how creative I am when it comes to certain things. be it work or play but the most significant sparks of creativity happens when i did things for the opposite sex. I didnt expect that i would do such creative tasks in my life.
Strange it may be, but lets face it. I think you guys out there also wont deny the fact that if its not because of the opposite sex, you would'nt bother to rack your brains to think of something unusual, something new that would make them remember for some time (at least for a short while). Especially to the people whom you care about, always shown concern about and lastly the ones whom you are interested with. Its part of nature i guess. Its natural that you would want to show off your interests to him/her by using creativity.
Don't doubt me bout these things as i have done origamis of roses and swans to the person im interested in. Making them looks nice, arranged them in such a way that you could'nt find it in any departmental stores or any place in this world. To try and make it the most unique gift in this entire world. (haha.. abit far fetched.. :P ) Just for that special person. But apparently, creativity is still not enough. Sad to say it only helps you on a physical side.
I'm a simpleton. Bad in maths during the secondary school days and i still am today. Thats why I suffered big time when it comes to logic thinking tasks such as programming or mathematical questions and equations. I always felt that one side of my brain is useless in a sense. LOL.
Yet a simpleton has the most vast shortcomings as it seems. Stubborn and loyal is a thin line to differentiate. Alot of people say im rather stubborn than loyal and dont dare to change my mindset about it. Especially to her. I'm always not able to let off that huge meteor (not stone. lol) that crashed into my deepest self eons ago. I dont understand why. Maybe my will is too fragile, always thought there might be still a slim chance of revival.
I guess I might have found the answer. It's my pride. The worlds stupidest thing that exists in almost all men. PRIDE. Self denial is a better word to describe me now i guess. Maybe i need something or someone else to help me eradicate that kind of feelings. If that could help me divert all my attention away, please come soon. I seriously want it to come. :)
Just feeling random. :P Thats what blogs are for right? lol
Yes!!! its 15 days till the Hong Kong trip!! =) ID, ID and more ID!! wootzor!
Till next time, ja ne~
If you happen to read my blog and find this portion, the paragraphs below are meant for you...White beetle said Fairlady is just using me as an emotional substitute which i agreed with her in some sense. Whenever the fire inside me starts to weaken then turning into a small flame, she would come and rekindled it. I have lost counts how many times she did that already. For once i shall say it here, if you think your bf is not compatible with you, why dont you just break off instead of hanging on and making yourself so gawd damn unhappy? Wake up for gawd's sake. On paper terms i seems to be a more suitable person for you than him. I would dare to say if i were to be your other half, i would not do things which he did to you. I would treasure you like you're the one and only woman left in this entire galaxy. I swear it to my heart. But ultimately, if there's no chemistry there will be no talk... i like and love you so much but that doesnt mean you will like me too. sighz. Life is so gawd damn irritating. Why dont cupid help me out instead??Now i dont really harbour any hopes of you liking me but i just would like you to spare me the emotional setbacks which i felt you could have inflicted on me and also treasure yourself. Only time will tell the truth..only time...
